discomfort

So I have embarked on a new mission lately, like I mentioned before I have put myself on a dating website. I believe that this was a way for me to push myself to move on from another relationship, it has yet to work; however I did go on a limb and have communicated and met one guy. Nothing that I am excited about but I do feel that God is teaching me something. My FB status today is about how uncomfortable I have been in life lately but I have hope that I will learn much from all of this. I have faced what feels like demons that tempt me into my past prior to believing in and know Jesus and God's redemptive love and promises. A person from my past has resurfaced that I have issues being connected to since we were last close teen years ago. i am trying to have peace in making the decision to not let them back into my life even through something as simple as FB. Every time this person reenters my life I end up hurt, by what seems to me as pettiness and conjuring up the past with lack of regard to how it may make me feel. To shorten it they feel it important to keep abreast of the things in the lives of the people I have no contact with and have no desire to be in contact with because my past was my past, painful, dark for some time. God mercifully has delivered me out of that life and has shown me forgiveness and how to forgive other but I hope to protect my self from rehashing all that yuck. And then there is this jacked up relationship at work that I will not get into.
And then there is the website, I went out with this guy twice giving him a chance but I really had no interest even when I initially contacted him, but I have learned a little bit about becoming comfortable in the dating area, meeting new people independent of my close friends that I rely heavily on for that. I am learning to think and talk through things ask for advice when to call it a night instead of sitting through a painfully long dinner just to be polite, to know my parameters and what scenarios I am comfortable in for a date. And I will learn how to reply to this person if they contact me again that I am not interested. Nobody ever wants to hear that and really does any one want to be the one to say that they are not interested.
I am very blessed to have such a wise friend who talked me through a lot of this tonight and again gave me some very good advice.